I don't like chain things of any sort. I do take part in the ones that are related to humanitarian needs of someone. But the other ones I read and then ignore.
So, I'm usually the party breaker!
But I haven't updated my journal for a while so I'll do this one.
But I still don't have the slightest idea about what I'm going to write.
1) I often get these little obsessions that invade my whole field of interest so I get really focused on them in a certan period of time. The most recent obsession of mine is the digital photography field. I plan buy my first DSLR camera soon. So I do hope one day I'll take really great photos.
Can't wait to play with all of the manual commands.
2) I am also obsessed with gemstones and all precious materials. Can't wait to get all the tools I need for making a 100% transition to that domain of precious and semiprecious materials.
3) I am not as organized as I would like to be. Sometimes I am, but most often I do like to postpone things that are not of big interest to me. I just love doing things that are of interest to me. It is hard to make my self doing all the things that are not.
4) I am extreme kind of person in sense that I usually look and to things in one of two possible ways. Either it is white or it is black and etc. So often I'm kidding that I work in a binary mode.
I find it difficult to deal with the gray (middle) areas. I usually have to find some internal algorithm for converting that gray into either white or black. But sometimes that is hard to do.
5) I was never as fat as I am now so that is starting to bother me a lot. So, soon I should be taking all that extra weight off. The paradox is - I'm going to the gym regulary for the last 5 years.
I just like to eat something chocolaty after every meal.
6) Sometimes I miss the fact that I don't have a sharp clear vision of the future for myself. I am a simple kind of person and I adapt well to current conditions so I'm really living in the moment and adapting to new conditions as they come along. Sometimes when I see really ambitious people I think that perhaps I should have that one ultimate goal for myself and follow that goal faithfully. I do know things I would love to be or that I would love to do but I just can't say that will be my future 100%. Closest to that is the field of jewelry making. That seems to be my lasting point of interest. The only bad thing I discovered that pretty much late in my education. If that happened earlier now I would be a professional gold/silversmith.
I also get attracted by new things so at a certain moment in time I'm totally involved with one particular subject. After I learn all I wannt to know about that, something else attracts me. So I'm just not the kind of person that has a constant point of attraction that I will follow blindly. I am also not money driven so I also lack that one thing that would make me go one way or the other.
7) I really hate phone calls to people I don't know. I prefer sms or email, not a phone call. Don't know why but if I can avoid to acctually call, I'll do it. I'm learning to overcome that but it is slow. But lately I'm better at it then usual.
8) I had a lot of supernatual eyperiences so I belive in many things other people don't. I'm really attracted to all the things that are spitirual/supernatual/unexplainable. The whole domain of spirituality appeals to me on a deep level. But not religions. I don't like religions much. The only one that is in sync with the way I think and exist is Zen buddhism. But I don't think of myself as a Zen buddhist. I'm really more interested in the lessons that life makes you learn. To me that is the true spirituality and the way to spiritualy evolve.
In this point of life my internal feeling of peace is the most sacred thing for me. It took me years to get it back and now it is here to stay. I don't let anyone including myself to mess with it. I will defend it with all I got. And I can be very agressive!
So, I guess this is it.